Several Days blogs from my laptop

"the reason most of us seem to have a consistent character is that most of us are really good at controlling our environment. "
The Tipping Point

I think i'm out of control.

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Welp...i like to to start things with the word welp...today was our first day with two empty chairs. we're in the big city of eros, la. cliff, their singer, and his wife have been in the hospital all day in arkansas, so ken reed the bands bass player lead worship. i was surprised! dude's got a great voice. i think it went very well for 4 guys that have never played together...or even ever met! i think the future should be fun.

next week looks busy

MONDAY & TUESDAY
graphics at bbc
WEDNESDAY
gilmers, tx with two empty chairs
FRIDAY
forner, tx with two empty chairs
SATURDAY & SUNDAY
mccalister ok with jeff capps

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J is for drama queen
cassie had an outreach every night this week. monday we went to the fairmont. tuesday back to the fairmont because it was raining. wednesday at the providence house. thursday at the bus stop.

wednesday at the providence house was tough on me. we were walking up and saw one of our favorite p. house families in their old suburban. it's a single mom with six kids. she's been homeless, living at the p. house for a while, but for some reason is having to move out. looking into an suv with seven people living in it. oh my gosh. breaks my freaking heart. those kids should be in school. playing on the playground. having fun. not surviving! these kids are just getting by. it's good day for them just to have a meal. can you imagine. oh my gosh! kills me. seems so unfair for those little kids.

i feel like a jerk. i complain about not getting an iphone, about our power bills being to high, cassie driving the car to much. it's a blessing to have those problems.

cassie and i try to live a simple life, but it's so hard in america. two nights this week after the outreach stuff, we hung out with some friends. our friends all have "real" jobs and make "real" money. there's so much pressure to have all the stuff and to do all this crap. we are living a life of giving ourselves away like the bible asks us to do, but it's so hard sometimes. it seems easier to get a graphics job and move to dallas. buy a house and have 2 and 1/2 kids.

so this boy, lindan, (see above photo) is hanging out of this mom's suburban talking to us about his sister. she was being silly. he looks at cassie and i and says "that's why we named her jessica. j is for drama queen"

i'm tired.